Sometimes I get panicky and paranoid when I am not in absolute control. That worries me and certainly makes life difficult for Katie. We have had some arguments about this because it is really hard to be humble and accept that it is me that creates tension and confusing situations.
Its almost like I choose to act panicky as a way of getting people to give me the attention and assistance I believe I deserve. I play victim a lot ... and that's all I will say about that.
Is this really what blogging is for? Feels more like a diary to me ... a diary that the whole world can see. Ouch.
So instead, I will describe my surroundings. Kitties are napping (its 2:45 in afternoon). The morning went by really quickly and the plug on my laptop is screwed so I had to wait to blog and do computer work (e.g. finding venue contact info for Pawnshop or emailing work) with Katie's laptop. I'm sitting lengthways on our white cotton couch (kind of a dirty white now though), which faces our large picture window in the living room. The window lets in the evening sun. Across the street is the city block sized park - small soccer field in background; foreground has tennis/basketball court (middle/left) and playground at right. In front of these are a couple huge trees and to the far right a nightwatchperson's home/public washrooms building. A sidewalk runs around the park. The photo really tells the story.
Weather today is blue skies, slight breeze and high of 20 C. Geez I'm missing out on some fantastic weather!
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